Being Away From Home

Being away from home is a tricky thing. When I started college last September, I was so excited that I barely ever even thought of going back home. You see, for me, it’s really easy to detach myself from something and focus on another thing. When it came to starting school, I was determined to make new friends, learn great things, and have amazing experiences.

Even when my family tragedy (which I’ll decide to share with you guys some day) happened, even though it was a difficult time, I was able to focus completely on my schoolwork and my relationship. My friends, thankfully, always kept me busy as well.

But this summer, something (or more than one thing, actually) has changed. I went from focusing on schoolwork, Model United Nations, my friends, my boyfriend, and my work, to focusing just on work and my boyfriend. I’m living with him and his family during the summer and although I love all of them to death, being in a home that is not mine has caused me to become stressed and anxious. More often than not, I have missed going into my parents’ room and giving my dad a hug or talking to my mom about boys and gossip, and nerding out with my sister about books. I’ve missed my own personal space more than ever and–given my family situation–it has all been magnified.

Here’s the thing, though: even though I’ve broken down a year after the tragedy more times than I ever did during the months after it, I’ve learned so many things this past year, some things that I’m sad that most people my age don’t learn. Maybe I am older than most people my age now, with what I think but sometimes I feel like a little girl still who just needs her dad to hold her while she cries and reassure her that everything is okay.

i know many freshmen feel homesick, especially during those cold winter months where you have to tread through hail and snow to get to class, but I think it’s important to recognize that people grow and mature and change but that doesn’t mean they stop missing their childhood. I know my life will never be the same, I’ve slowly and painfully tried to accept that I’m still trying to. Life experiences make everyone a better person if they decide to take it as a learning lesson.

You must be thinking, why is this 19 year-old girl preaching about learning lessons, she’s barely lived a quarter of her lifetime. To that, I say: that’s so true. Many of the things I have lived recently should not happen and does not happen to most people. I don’t feel ready to share that story in this new blog but I promise one day I will. This post is mainly to express my thoughts about how difficult it has been for me to be away from home this summer and how sometimes I want to curl up in a ball and feel like this is all a dream.

I don’t know how to make being away better: I’ve always been an independent spirit and I’ve never minded being on my own–life just gives you lemons and either you drink it with vodka* and have a party or let them rot.

I choose to live.

I choose to party.

Love,

Patricia

*Note: I’m 19 and yes, that’s underage, BUT in PR, where I lived until last September and still visit several times a year, the legal drinking age is 18 so yes, I’ve had vodka and all that legally.

Go-To Websites

Hey everyone! Today, I’m bringing you a list of my top five go-to websites/blogs. These websites you should totally bookmark and make them part of your daily reads. I have been visiting these websites long before I ever started blogging and they’ve provided me with all kinds of information AND inspiration, so click away!

01. WhoWhatWear.Com: WhoWhatWear is my absolute favorite fashion website. From celebrity inspiratoin to where to get certain trendy items, I can always find the best style inspo from them.

02TheBeautyDepartment.Com: They have the best beauty and hair tutorials you’ll ever see on the web. I’m not even kidding. They show you everything from the basics to the more glamed-up looks.

03. ABeautifulMess.Com: I’m obsessed with everything that has to do with A Beautiful Mess. From their awesome app to their recipes and photography tips, Emma and Elsie are the best. Their personal posts are really cute, too.

04. HonestlyWTF.com: HonestlyWTF has the BEST DIYs ever. Their DIYs of expensive items look legit and they are so fun to make. They also have a lot of art and visual inspiration.

05. GalaDarling.Com: Gala is so inspirational with her posts about self-love and her tips to value yourself more. Not only that, but her posts range from a lot of different topics.

There you go! Those are my go-to websites for anything I want to get inspiration from. I’m always on the lookout for blogs that have great content that is not just fashion but a wide range of things. What are some of your favorite blogs?

Art and Daily Inspiration

I find that art really inspires me to basically do everything: write, style, decorate…even cook! I have discovered that art is almost an acquired taste. I didn’t particularly love going to museums as a kid and I didn’t know much about movements and artists. Slowly, though, I have started to immerse myself in the world of art and I’ve enjoyed going to the Boston Museum of Fine Arts through the year. I’m planning to visit in the next few days so I will keep you updated on what I find.

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Traveling To…Portofino, Italy

Today, I’m going to be bringing to you the first post on the Traveling To… series. Every post, I will be featuring one of the places from my Wanderlusting Pinterest board along with a cute outfit ideainspired by that place. That way, we can all travel without ever leaving the comforts of our own place.

When I see this image, I think of color, fine dining, and beautiful nights along the water. Portofino is a fishing village therefore, it’s all centered around seafood and sea-living. What a wonderful thing, in my opinion.

To get that breezy, by-the-sea feel, this outfit is super cute. I’m very into gold right now so I centered all my accessories around the gold touches. You can pair a floral bustier with a midi or maxi skirt in a neutral or pastel color. Wedges are in right now since it’s the summer and the wide-brim hat is just exquisite. I created this look using Polyvore and you can find details about each item here.

Happy travels!

Book Review: The Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera

9717A young woman is in love with a successful surgeon, a man torn between his love for her and his incorrigible womanizing. His mistress, a free-spirited artist, lives her life as a series of betrayals–while her other lover, earnest, faithful, and good, stands to lose everything because of his noble qualities. In a world where lives are shaped by irrevocable choices and fortuitous events, and everything occurs but once, existence seems to lose its substance, its weight. Hence we feel “the unbearable lightness of being.”

A major achievement from one of the world’s truly great writers, Milan Kundera’s magnificent novel of passion and politics, infidelity and ideas, encompasses the extremes of comedy and tragedy, illuminating all aspects of human existence.

Goodreads

The Unbearable Lightness of Being was recommended to me by a friend after I told him I really loved Love in the Time of Cholera. Even after a few days after finishing the book, I’m still confused on how I feel about it.

The story has four main characters: Tomas, Tereza, Sabina, and Franz. It revolves mainly about their relationships but also has political and metaphysical themes. I’m going to break down this review into three areas: Characters, Writing, and Plot to better organize my thoughts.

Characters:

There’s something oddly unnerving about Kundera’s characters. I felt at very extremes: either I couldn’t relate to them or they resounded so much with the (to reference the title) essence of being human that it made me uncomfortable. I admired how Kundera took very human and honest characters. This book is mainly about exploring them as people and less about developing an intriguing story. At times, I felt frustration with Tomas and Tereza and the fact that they were ttogether and weren’t brave enough to venture out of what I considered a very toxic relationship. Without any spoilers, Tomas’s womanizing threw me off completely and Tereza’s feeling for herself constantly made me think of her as weak and desperate. I didn’t admire her character at all.

However, Kundera explores what most writers don’t: the fact that these are terribly flawed, completely human characters. They are not the kind of people I’d like to spend time with but they are simply so human that one can’t help but realize that there is a lot of us in them. That, I think, is what made me really uncomfortable. Many might feel the same way, thinking that the characters reveal too much of their own selves.

Plot:
In terms of plot, there really isn’t any. The story is more of a story of exploring human being rather than creating plot twists. That’s what makes it engaging. Although there are moments when you’re reading to see what happens next, it’s more about trying to figure out the reason why several characters do certain things rather than looking for a ‘surprise’ outcome.

I’d say this book is definitely a metaphysical/philosphical exploration of humans and relationships. Kundera has many great insights about positives and negatives and how the lines are often extremely blurred. This insight is what makes the book really unique and engaging. There are also some political aspects that while interesting, were a bit on the boring side sometimes and too much for an already heavy book.

Writing:
Kundera’s omniscient writing enables him to explore each character’s to detail. His writing is a different type of writing that I’m accustomed to but it is incredibly beautiful and eloquent. Despite my frustration with the lack of plot and the stupidity of some characters, his writing made me feel both so light and so heavy that it really touched my emotions enough to keep reading. I would definitely pick up more books by him.

Veredict:

I might read this a second time in order to further study Kundera’s methods. I recommend this for a cold day in. It’s not a beach read and its a pretty heavy book. Good, but I don’t think it’s amazing. Happy reading!

Top 5 Nail Polishes for Summer

Who says that nail polish isn’t an accessory, too? I love getting different colors and changing it up every few weeks. Here, I have compiled a list of the best nail polishes for summer.

Butter London in Fiver $15

Butter London in Fiver
$15

Essie in Marshmallow $8

Essie in Marshmallow
$8

American Apparel in Neon Yellow $6

American Apparel in Neon Yellow
$6

OPI in Hearth Throb $8

OPI in Hearth Throb
$8

Chanel in Distraction $27

Chanel in Distraction
$27

What Fashion Doesn’t Teach You

Here’s the thing: I love fashion and art and I believe there’s no better way of showing your personality to someone in less than a second than by wearing your personality. However, what fashion doesn’t teach us is that we are all different. Fashion magazines are filled with models who are size 00 and sometimes, that can be really hard to relate to. Not only do magazines put this pressure on us, but us women are constantly being scrutinized by our appearance. Whether it’s by calling a girl a slut or a prude, there’s no happy medium. And what’s worse? It’s us who are criticizing our appearance. Sure, men sometimes yell nasty things at us on the street but that’s different than having your best friend making you feel fat or your mom saying you have to lose weight. So how do we fix this mentality?

I’m hispanic, which almost always means that I’m going to have a big butt, wide hips, and boobs. Although the last one in that list is not really true, I do have wide hips, thighs, and butt and most of the time, I love them. The other times, though, especially if I’m trying t get into a pair of cuffed shorts, I don’t. Although I have a rather soft belly, I have a small waist and, if it weren’t for my big thighs, I’d assume I’d be a size less. The thing is, I can hardly get a size two past my butt and when I do, even if it might sit comfortably on my midsection, my thighs feel like I’m busting out of my pants.

It has been a struggle for me to love and accept my body, it still is. But I’ve learned that not two bodies are the same and that I will never be stick thin. That’s just not the way I am built. So I’ve vowed to take care of my body as much as I possibly can without restricting myself and feeling unhappy because I need to eat a salad.

Loving your body is not easy to do, especially when you have thousands of ads and celebrities talking about their size 2 bodies. But that’s not fair to you or those who love you. For example, my boyfriend loves that I have big thighs and a soft stomach. There’s more of me to love and I don’t feel fragile. He can rest his head on my belly or my lap and he falls asleep. I find this very endearing. I still struggle to accept my body but here I’ve compiled a list of how to love your body:

1. Embrace the good parts and accept that you can only change the bad parts so much.
2. Stop comparing yourself to models.
3. Don’t be afraid to eat that piece of cake. It won’t kill you and it will probably make you really happy.
4. Give your body a break. Don’t suffer in the gym.
5. Embrace how powerful your body is. Can your legs sustain running a marathon? Do you have flexibility? Do you love the way that cute top looks on you?
6. Treat your body like a temple. Accepting your body does not mean you can let it shrivel up and die. You need to respect it and not do stuff that would damage it.
7. Buy clothes that fit you! Don’t worry about the tags, There’s nothing that would make you feel worse about your body than wearing a size that’s not your right fit.
8. Learn that you probably do not look bad. Sometimes we see a whole other person in the mirror. That person isn’t off. The best clothes you could ever wear is confidence.
9. Love other people’s body, too. There’s nothing better than seeing someone who is confident in their own body. Try to take inspiration from the people who love their bodies instead of those who starve themselves because they’re unhappy.
10. You are beautiful! No matter what size or shape or color or ANYTHING you are.